32 Weeks

Emma:
    "By now, your baby weighs 3.75 pounds (pick up a large jicama) and is about 16.7 inches long, taking up a lot of space in your uterus. You're gaining about a pound a week and roughly half of that goes right to your baby. In fact, she'll gain a third to half of her birth weight during the next 7 weeks as she fattens up for survival outside the womb. She now has toenails, fingernails, and real hair (or at least respectable peach fuzz). Her skin is becoming soft and smooth as she plumps up in preparation for birth."

Me:
        For some reason, morning sickness started up again.  I wake up and can't seem to do anything but lay in bed or hang out with my head in the toilet.  Its also quite painful since my abdomen is already stretched out so much. It feels like I'm pulling a muscle all the time.  Emma still has enough room to wiggle, kick, roll, punch, etc. but its getting uncomfortable and sort of nauseating when she does somersaults.  Don't get me wrong, being able to feel a person moving inside me is a pretty incredible feeling and I'm so lucky that I am able to have kids.  I guess I need to focus more on how amazing it is that my body is capable of doing this and less about how uncomfortable and generally painful it is.  I think about so many amazing women that for whatever reason can't have children who would be such great mothers.  It makes me sad for them but also makes me want to be a good mother and not take for granted that I am lucky enough to be able to be a mother.  Its also given me so much more respect for mothers in general, and especially my own.  She not only had 3 kids before me but then gave birth to a 10 lb 6 oz toddler!  Okay not a toddler, but seriously, I was a huge baby.  Everyone always told me "you'll understand when you're a mother."  I'm not even a mother yet and I have a whole new outlook on mothers and pregnancy.  I'm not done being pregnant and Emma isn't as big as I was. I know how uncomfortable and insane I feel right now. 

All I can say is Mom, you are one hell of a strong woman.  Thanks for putting up with me!  I love you.